August 2nd
3 More Days Until I Leave.
I Don't Wait, Until I Leave. I Really Need To Clear My Mind.
In 2 Days It's My Sister's "Wedding".
I Just Meet My "Uncle" If I Can Even Call Him That. Haha, It's Very Confusing.
My Bottom Lip Hurts. It's Like My Braces Are Cutting Into It.
- Location:My Home.
- Mood:
artistic
August 1st
I Have Four Days, Until I Leave. I'm Still Packing, But I'm Almost Done.
Just Got To Pack My Clothes and My Shoes.
I've Been Waiting For This Trip All Summer And Since I Found Out I Was Going.
Tomorrow, One Of My "Family" Member's Is Coming From Out Of Town.
It's Going To Be So Cool. Man, I Still Got To Lose A Lot Of Weight.
But I'm Looking And Feeling Better. Plus, I Got My Hair Dyed.
I love it.
What are you afraid of?
I Am So Scared Of Clowns. Have Been Since I Was Young.
One Time, I Went to K-Days. And Went Into A Haunted House And A Clown Popped Out Of Nowhere.
I Punched Him In The Face.
Fuck, I Hate Clowns So Much.
I have to babysit tommorow night too, and all weekend. I don't think that I will make it.
What was the last wedding you went to? Were you in the wedding?
The last wedding I went to was my sisters.
It was in August. Every small, Only Family.
But this year she to have a big party.
No, I wasn't in the wedding. But this year, for the party, I'm going to be a MC.
Whatever that is.
I Mean, I Haven't Known Him For That Long. But He Makes Me Laugh and I Can Talk To Him. But Somethings, I Guess.
But He Would Never Date A Girl Like Me.
I fucking hate you. I really fucking do. You can talk about me all you fucking want but when it comes to my friends.
Fuck they mean everything to me. Then when I get fucking mad. YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE.
You're nothing to no one. Learn that and live by that.
- Music:Swing Life Away-Rise Against
It's been a while. I got the best news of my life. Next year I will be attending another school. I guess that the only bad thing about that, is that I meet some really good friends and I won't be seeing them next year.Sam, is back in town. Which is so great, because I missed her so fucking much. I won't be seeing she maybe until after the 15th becasue I have to bust my ass.. of the last few weeks of school. Man, this year went by so fast. It's so freaky. This summer, I'm going to El Salvador. Which is going to be AMAZING. I can't wait. I've been trying to tan lately because I am so pale. And Then I won't have to work so hard to get a tan when I get over there. I'm also going to go on a diet. Because for the next school year, I want to be thinner. Plus, It will be good for my health. I can't wait for tommorow. I will be haning out with Dora, Anabel, at the mall. I only meet her this year, but she is so great. I hope I don't forget my camera. We Will be taking a lot of pictures.
-Love
Lelly
- Music:All Around Me- Flyleaf
YUMMY
SUNFLOWER SEEDS!!!
I don't get it. Why do I feel so alone? I've got no one.
I miss him
I miss the good old fucking days.
Someone bring them back to me.
Please.
You smile at me. You asked me a question.
And I can't wait to see you later.
Forever is a lie.
Everything hurts. I see people in the hallway. " Your my best friend", and I'm there sitting with my "group of friends" but I feel left out.
Like I'm watching it in third person. Why is everyone fading away? Why do I feel so alone?
I don't have Sam anymore. And I hate it so much. Why did you have to leave?
I'm so upset, that my insides are hurting. It feel like lately I haven't been able to breathe. I've been getting so many headaches.
I can't sleep because I want to cry. All, I have to do is keep saying is 'Thank goodness you haven't started again'.
Maybe I feel like this because I'm always left out of my "friends" Plan. They work, and it's all understandable. I just wish that I didn't brushed aside like that.
If this goes on for the next two years, I'm going to feel so alone. I might not make it.
All I want is a new start.
- Mood:
depressed
She waste my time. Haha, and it makes me laugh so much.
- Mood:
crazy
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